This novel is based on a true story. At various episodes there are guesses as to the true motivations behind actions of the featured characters. As always in life, there are multiple angles and no single truth. As a witness to the evolution throughout the earlier parts of the main character`s journey I can still recount vividly how I felt, but can only induce how those around me did. My unique access to close friends of the main character allowed me to have off the record conversations to get closer to the truth. Whenever these conversations revealed new information, I made sure to triangulate from a new center of truth. The latter parts of the journey are based on factual evidence and interviews with close bystanders, all of which is documented on the corresponding website: www.running-dirty.com. 

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I can only speak about the things I know: the things I have seen with my own eyes, the things I have heard with my own ears. Except for Kinahan. I was closer to Sebastian than anyone else. He was already pushing thirty when I met him, and neither one of us spent much time talking about our pasts. His childhood is largely a mystery to me, and beyond a few casual remarks he made about his parents and sisters over the years, I know next to nothing about his family. If the circumstances would make an effort to talk to as many of Sachs’s grade school, teachers and high school friends, to set up interviews with his cousins and college classmates, and the men he was in prison with. There isn’t enough time for that, and because I’m forced to work quickly, I have to rely on my own memories. I’m not saying that these memories should be doubted, but they are necessarily tainted about the things I do know about Sebastian, but I don’t want to present this book as something it’s not. There are no footnotes, no bibliography or an exhaustive psychological portrait, and even if Sebastian had confided to me over the years of our friendship who he was, I claim to have no more than a partial understanding of who he was. I want to tell the truth about him, to explore the possibilities these memories, as I can. Wait. Imagine I’m wrong, that the truth is quite different from what I imagine it to be. I write on Sebastian as Paul Auster did on Sachs - Leviathian

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You will also find newspaper clippings, YouTube reports and official company register information of and adjacent to the storylines, characters and entities. The real names have been altered since all of them are still alive and dangerous. Therefore I have also not revealed my real name.